Sam, phone tag=ultra lame
I have spent the last couple of days just fucking around. Doing pretty much anything and everything excluding homework and work, its been ultra stellar glorious and I might just keep this going. I'm getting tired of trying to do well in school. I was on a cruise with some really amazing people a year ago. It all seems so sureal. I dont know what I'm supposed to do, my parents cant keep their shit together, but they expect me to? I want to live life, not live the system. My brother bought a car to replace mine, that he wrecked. I understand that shit happens, and I'm trying to be calm/mature about this but its really frustrating that hes driving around again and I'm just fucked. I dont want to die...unfulfilled. Oh and Fuck Mrs Buelin. But that bitch is another story. My stupid Brother is still in love with her, brown nosing prick. My dads going to get me a cell phone/put me on his plan for a year as a Christmas present, because he cant think of anything else. I think I'm working everynight this week at least a job, and three or more days 2 jobs. Hahahhaha, there goes the trend from the begining of the post. Mike (one of my managers, cool fucking guy) emails me and is like "so I can set a cot up for you here too, and just give you a ride to school in the morning" And I'm seriously considering taking him up on it. I miss my cousins. I havent seen them in like 3 years because there mom is a drunk and my mom is bitter so they dont get along well and its sad because they are both very cool people. I really need a haircut. People who are fake, like my parents, are starting to drive me insane, bad acting as a living is not the way to go. It seems kinda strange to realize that almost half of the school year is over and that the seniors are leaving in just over five months. I want a dramatic change in my life, but for the better rather than the worst. My life seems like a tv show, every time stuff starts to chill out something bad happens, in a very real cycle, and I'm talking bad bad stuff not just normal bad stuff. Dont get me wrong, good stuff happens to, but its much easier to define epochs in your life by things that go wrong. Speaking of epochs, I was watching something on the appocolypse on the History Chanel the other day, apparently quite a few Christians belive its imminent. Sounds like a drag, death, the anti-christ, famine, disease. Fairly interesting though.