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well iam at carys moms house.just got done getting HIGH!!!dude ive been getting HIGH for about 4weeks straight and ive been doing it about three to four times a day now and well iave just smoked myslef fucking stupid.really i can feel the lack of brain cells running in my head.i mean i feel smarter but realy iam not.latey ive notice that ive been rocking myslef and shacking alot.sooooo yea not a good sign.its about time i quit alot of things.if you know what i mean!!!but anyways enough about me.iam just hoping that very thing with noelle works out and iam hopinh that i can finally be able to talk to marcy agin before i ever try leaving florida agin.but anyways yeah still really HIGH!!! yes iam still high.iam hoping that it goes away sothat i can light a nother one up agin.
GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!!!!!WHY CANT I LIVE A NORMAL FUCKING LIFE WHERE MY MOM DOESNT FUCKS WITH MY LIFE WHERE IAM STILL DOING GOOD IN SCHOOL AND WHERE I CANT GET A GOOD FUCKING JOB AND HAVE A GOOD FUCKING JOLLY LIFE.I MEAN REALLY.JEUSS FUVKING CRIST!!!...ITS LIKE I WANT TO SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT AND WAIT TILL THEY BLEED.YOU KNOW IVE GOTTEN SO BAD THAT I MYSELF WANT TO START CUTING AGIN.I MEAN THATS REALLY FUCKING BAD.......ANYWAYS AIM GETTING TIRED OF MY RANTING MOOD.IAM JUST GOING TO WAIT BY THE PHONE INTILL SOMEONE CALLS ME SO THAT WE CAN CHILL.
FUCK YOU..
FUCK THE WORLD..
AND FUCK EVERYTHING THATS IN IT!!!
GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!!!!!WHY CANT I LIVE A NORMAL FUCKING LIFE WHERE MY MOM DOESNT FUCKS WITH MY LIFE WHERE IAM STILL DOING GOOD IN SCHOOL AND WHERE I CANT GET A GOOD FUCKING JOB AND HAVE A GOOD FUCKING JOLLY LIFE.I MEAN REALLY.JEUSS FUVKING CRIST!!!...ITS LIKE I WANT TO SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT AND WAIT TILL THEY BLEED.YOU KNOW IVE GOTTEN SO BAD THAT I MYSELF WANT TO START CUTING AGIN.I MEAN THATS REALLY FUCKING BAD.......ANYWAYS AIM GETTING TIRED OF MY RANTING MOOD.IAM JUST GOING TO WAIT BY THE PHONE INTILL SOMEONE CALLS ME SO THAT WE CAN CHILL.
FUCK YOU..
FUCK THE WORLD..
AND FUCK EVERYTHING THATS IN IT!!!