hard lessons to learn
something i have learned the past few days...
they will never find something wrong with their behavior. no you are the selfish one. you are the childish one. you are not fighting back against being mistreated and belittled. no, you are just being irrational. they couldn't possibley be at fault. they couldn't have done anything wrong. is partly my fault? i let them get away with it before. i kept my mouth shut even though i was hurt. even though i saw that glint in their eye. they enjoyed hurting me. i'm tired of dealing with narcissitic head cases.
either way, i am tired of letting myself be hurt. of not speaking up when i need too. somewhere in my life i felt the need to keep things pleasant at my expense. to carry burdens for other people. when people feel like bullying, when people feel like being illogical, i have to take it.
they can believe what they want. they don't own me.
they will never find something wrong with their behavior. no you are the selfish one. you are the childish one. you are not fighting back against being mistreated and belittled. no, you are just being irrational. they couldn't possibley be at fault. they couldn't have done anything wrong. is partly my fault? i let them get away with it before. i kept my mouth shut even though i was hurt. even though i saw that glint in their eye. they enjoyed hurting me. i'm tired of dealing with narcissitic head cases.
either way, i am tired of letting myself be hurt. of not speaking up when i need too. somewhere in my life i felt the need to keep things pleasant at my expense. to carry burdens for other people. when people feel like bullying, when people feel like being illogical, i have to take it.
they can believe what they want. they don't own me.