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i feel broken.
i have all these melting relationships, slowly creeping away. i cant seem to gather up any kind of motivation or emotion to do that other than ritual. i sleep, i shower, i work, i eat, i zone out. ive really only been hanging out with gecks, we've closed our little circle up to keep it warm while jens gone perhaps.
i cant see how guys i date can be such idiots, and still have the expectations of redemption. That because i dated them once that ill just drop my panties when they're feeling a little lonely? not my problem, definetly not my problem.
someone keeps saying "if you stop looking, it will find you"
but i never really have been looking. and when i thought it had found me, it was a nice hard bitch slap back to reality. the cruelty of man.
i have all these melting relationships, slowly creeping away. i cant seem to gather up any kind of motivation or emotion to do that other than ritual. i sleep, i shower, i work, i eat, i zone out. ive really only been hanging out with gecks, we've closed our little circle up to keep it warm while jens gone perhaps.
i cant see how guys i date can be such idiots, and still have the expectations of redemption. That because i dated them once that ill just drop my panties when they're feeling a little lonely? not my problem, definetly not my problem.
someone keeps saying "if you stop looking, it will find you"
but i never really have been looking. and when i thought it had found me, it was a nice hard bitch slap back to reality. the cruelty of man.