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I need to stop trying to save the world along with everyone and everything in it.
Maybe then I wouldn't end up disappointed when I fail.
And maybe that's my problem. I care too much and in the end I can't do a damn thing. Some therapist I'm turning out to be.
Edit:
After having most of class to dwell on it, I realized what really gets me. It's not that I'm trying to save the world. It's that I'm trying to help people. And when I can't even do something as simple as that, something I'm trying to learn how to do, it makes me feel like I let the person in question down.
I hate feeling like I let people down.
And when I try to solve problems, and I can't... it makes me feel confused and frustrated.
I don't know, maybe the stress is getting to me. I'm not usually the type to emo in my LJ. But dammit, I thought thinking things over and writing things down was supposed to help.
Maybe then I wouldn't end up disappointed when I fail.
And maybe that's my problem. I care too much and in the end I can't do a damn thing. Some therapist I'm turning out to be.
Edit:
After having most of class to dwell on it, I realized what really gets me. It's not that I'm trying to save the world. It's that I'm trying to help people. And when I can't even do something as simple as that, something I'm trying to learn how to do, it makes me feel like I let the person in question down.
I hate feeling like I let people down.
And when I try to solve problems, and I can't... it makes me feel confused and frustrated.
I don't know, maybe the stress is getting to me. I'm not usually the type to emo in my LJ. But dammit, I thought thinking things over and writing things down was supposed to help.