that black part
When I go back and read my journal entrys I can see when I needed to be on medication.I don't ever wann be on medication again.I hated taking that stuff.Now that I don't have any contact with Dustin at all I've felt better.He always made such a big deal about staying friends.I"m sorry it's just really fucking hard to stay friends with someone who keeps playing with you.Getting less and less angry everyday.Going back to the mothering me.And the raise at work has made me happier.Gonna start staying at home and mabey getting a second job,part time.The people next door moved out and mom wants to buy it so no one eles moves in.I just gotta get a change of walls.It's creeeping in on me day in and day out.But i'm out for tonight.Supposedly david is possed to call me tonight.Later