I really am a lost cause...
Supposly according to my Dad, my thearpist thinks I should see someone else so I can get what he wants for me? But according to my thearpist my dad doesn't feel it's working and wants something with faster results... I don't know the whole thing is confusing, and I still haven't fully comprehended the situation...
The only I kept thinking as they told this to me was "Wow... I really have no hope at being happy" I kinda want to believe my dads side, because he's my father, but when he tried buying my love back with a dvd today I started thinking... "If you're right, then why are you apologizing?"
I've felt kinda dead all day... somewhere inbetween confused and depressed. I can't figure out which one I should be more. Then I started having more thoughts about Amy, thinking wow... how is she who she says she is. She's supposed to be this new person, but she's already starting to act like her old self...
I'm defintely overthinking, but I thought about it last night. Maybe shes pretending to be this new person to fool her parents, and win their complete trust back. Maybe this is all part of some plan, and I'm not supposed to know so I won't jepordize it. Then she'll come back to me when she's finally safe. She told me to wait for her, she made me promise, she told me she'd always love me. Can I believe I'm being tested?
No I'm overthinking...
These are merely thoughts of a hopeless, lost, forgotten individual.
If she could at least do me a favor and at LEAST make up a damn reason for leaving me. A real one, instead of using the name of god to leave me. She's no better then the terroist who kill in the name of Allah. Cept of course, that she doesn't kill...
I'm a man thats all about Cause and Effect, a science man, everything has a reason. Theres always another way to slove a problem. There are more then 2 ways, there is a 3rd option!
She could at least help me to learn from mistakes by telling me my mistake so I can move on.
I really wish the whole fake Amy theory was true... Then I'd have hope...
I already know if this year is like last year... I won't survive... so far it is, almost excactly...
The only I kept thinking as they told this to me was "Wow... I really have no hope at being happy" I kinda want to believe my dads side, because he's my father, but when he tried buying my love back with a dvd today I started thinking... "If you're right, then why are you apologizing?"
I've felt kinda dead all day... somewhere inbetween confused and depressed. I can't figure out which one I should be more. Then I started having more thoughts about Amy, thinking wow... how is she who she says she is. She's supposed to be this new person, but she's already starting to act like her old self...
I'm defintely overthinking, but I thought about it last night. Maybe shes pretending to be this new person to fool her parents, and win their complete trust back. Maybe this is all part of some plan, and I'm not supposed to know so I won't jepordize it. Then she'll come back to me when she's finally safe. She told me to wait for her, she made me promise, she told me she'd always love me. Can I believe I'm being tested?
No I'm overthinking...
These are merely thoughts of a hopeless, lost, forgotten individual.
If she could at least do me a favor and at LEAST make up a damn reason for leaving me. A real one, instead of using the name of god to leave me. She's no better then the terroist who kill in the name of Allah. Cept of course, that she doesn't kill...
I'm a man thats all about Cause and Effect, a science man, everything has a reason. Theres always another way to slove a problem. There are more then 2 ways, there is a 3rd option!
She could at least help me to learn from mistakes by telling me my mistake so I can move on.
I really wish the whole fake Amy theory was true... Then I'd have hope...
I already know if this year is like last year... I won't survive... so far it is, almost excactly...