Stop the world... I want to get off!
So i had one of those times...that i have every now and then...where i just break down..and i don't mean about one thing...just about everything...It hit me hard last night...and once I started, I couldn't stop...I don't know why..i have just been sooo sensitive lately...and I know it...and I cant stop myself...and even though some things in my life are going really well...I cant help but think about the future...at which time I find myself completely upset. I am constantly annoyed with people...sometimes because they are being annoying...and sometimes because I am just always irritated lately.
I am sad about my grandpa
I am contemplative about him
I am so upset about people like Laura Mcnair leaving me next year
I am sad about my senior year in general because so many people will not be a part of it to enjoy it with me
I am sad about this summer, when it will all have to come to an end
I am sad that my sister is going to Europe next quarter because i know things are going to change between us
I am upset that my dad is constantly worried and crying and I am always at a loss for words and of no help
I am not happy with myself, my appearance, my choices, my brain, my work habits, my weight.
I am frustrated that i have wasted the last 3 years of my life
I am nervous about college and starting my new life
I hate my relationship with her
I feel empty and worthless...as though i have nothing to offer
And yet... I have had some of the best times lately.
I am confused and lost and always trying to catch up, yet always falling just a little short..however I am hopeful that something/someone, sometime, soon will come and put me back on the right track
I am sad about my grandpa
I am contemplative about him
I am so upset about people like Laura Mcnair leaving me next year
I am sad about my senior year in general because so many people will not be a part of it to enjoy it with me
I am sad about this summer, when it will all have to come to an end
I am sad that my sister is going to Europe next quarter because i know things are going to change between us
I am upset that my dad is constantly worried and crying and I am always at a loss for words and of no help
I am not happy with myself, my appearance, my choices, my brain, my work habits, my weight.
I am frustrated that i have wasted the last 3 years of my life
I am nervous about college and starting my new life
I hate my relationship with her
I feel empty and worthless...as though i have nothing to offer
And yet... I have had some of the best times lately.
I am confused and lost and always trying to catch up, yet always falling just a little short..however I am hopeful that something/someone, sometime, soon will come and put me back on the right track