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the past few days have been so weird. i feel like i have said "i miss you" to about 500 different people, 500 different times. i think i say "i miss you" without actually missing people, but more because i haven't seen them in awhile, and think i'm supposed to miss them. that most likely makes zero sense to anyone but me. the people i really miss are right here, about 4 minutes away. it's far worse to miss someone so close than it is to not see a best friend for a few months. i'd rather feel close to someone miles away than feel far away from someone close by. i miss everything about having him around. i wish things didn't turn out the way they did. sometimes i lose hope that there are good people left in the world. seems like the people i think are genuine, are really just pretending to be for a short time. everyone is a letdown. i always wished i'd trusted him more, but now i'm kind of glad i didn't get completely screwed. once again, i was never this girl. i don't know. i miss him.