I am the world's biggest idiot.
You said you tried but it was no use. But it was I who tried, tried too much. I allowed myself to fall too deep into my fantasies of you. But when it is only me doing the dreaming then I know that all we'll ever be is a dream. I'm not mad at you. If I could be anywhere in the world this second it would still be there with you, but that will not happen because you see that is the difference between our dreams and reality.
So what is the point then? We will continue on with me wanting you because of that night you said "I think I am falling for you" words which I can no longer believe because you are too much of a mystery for me to know what goes on in your mind. You talk to me as a friend because, unlike me, you chose to expect the worst or perhaps nothing at all. You chose to consider the chance of us failing rather than the thought that in time I would give you the world. Maybe it is better to be my friend. After all,
it does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.
So what is the point then? We will continue on with me wanting you because of that night you said "I think I am falling for you" words which I can no longer believe because you are too much of a mystery for me to know what goes on in your mind. You talk to me as a friend because, unlike me, you chose to expect the worst or perhaps nothing at all. You chose to consider the chance of us failing rather than the thought that in time I would give you the world. Maybe it is better to be my friend. After all,
it does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.