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Why am I so angry? What makes me feel that bitter emptiness when I see other people so happy in ways that I cannot or could no longer be? Why do things work out for them and not me? I know life isn't perfect, but mine has been ridiculous. Let something go right, come on. I am missing something. I haven't figured out what it is. Everythig is so
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I don't know if listing whatever does it any justice...
but honestly my life has been like that, I sit here waiting for something, waiting for nothing. One day I decided to just start doing everything.
And also I asked god or universal energies or whateverthefuck to guide me and they did that exactly.
It's wierd, this year I'm getting more of everything I've always wanted and never had. Friendship, for instance... I mean even gaining you as a friend made me really happy. It was wierd. I'm not sure if I've told you much before but i'll tell you how I met you.
Well, last year I was depressed as hell. I had no. friends.
nobody related to me! Everyone was disconnected (I still complain about that)... apathetic... where was my community? I don't belong here, I'm an alien.
Well anyway last year I joined the dilly and all that shit because I couldn't find people in real life/ I didn't have the social skills yet. Sometimes I would search for hours a day. you are one of the people I wished for and found... I wished to find people who related to me, people i could make friendships with.
you are a result of hours of searching.
So are other people.
Even here I met my friends on MSN before having actual facetoface conversations with them.
What I'm saying is any results I get came from efforts even if a lot of the time it was just painful, i came out with good stuff.
I don't even know if this post is relevant and I feel kinda retarded now because i've given you such a narrow covering and I feel like i've forgotten why I told you that. ahg.
ps add my new lj "threngew" ill add you next time I log in
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