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I cant wait to move to the east coast, to get away from everyone and everything here. Maybe if I'm lucky I can convince my mom to let me go early. like, WAY early.
there's honestly nothing worth staying for. I love my friends and all, but seriously if they're true friends I'll still talk to them after I leave.
I miss being happy. Content happy not like 'oh im in love' or 'oh i had a good day' happy. I miss the 'even though i dont have it all i have enough and that's fine with me' happy.
I know a lot of the problems I have I caused myself, but who doesnt make mistakes? I'm sick of consistantly paying for them, it's so unbelievably not worth it anymore.
I just want to leave, for good.
ugh... why cant june be closer?
there's honestly nothing worth staying for. I love my friends and all, but seriously if they're true friends I'll still talk to them after I leave.
I miss being happy. Content happy not like 'oh im in love' or 'oh i had a good day' happy. I miss the 'even though i dont have it all i have enough and that's fine with me' happy.
I know a lot of the problems I have I caused myself, but who doesnt make mistakes? I'm sick of consistantly paying for them, it's so unbelievably not worth it anymore.
I just want to leave, for good.
ugh... why cant june be closer?