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I really do not know. I've been sitting around doing nothing lately. The past week or so I've not even talked to Megan. She is either not at her computer or sleeping or just not talking to me. Saturday She wondered off because a friend showed up at her house and I didn't know. I made comments about how she had wandered off then said "Its always nice chatting with you." at which point she got back to her computer and got pissy with me about her friend being there and not being at her computer because of that. How was I supposed to know her friend was there and that was the reason she was not at her computer. It would of taken all of 2 fucking seconds to say "Hey my friend is here talk later."
I told her I would leave her alone so she can talk to her friend and have not talked to her yet since then. I really do not plan on starting a conversation with her. She will just wander off on me or just not talk to me opting to chat with others leaving me to think she went and did something. Like I said we have not been talking all that much the past week. She keeps wandering off in the middle of conversations and not telling me anything. Its why I've decided to not start conversations with her. If she wants to talk she can feel free to talk to me but I'm done putting in the effort to be a friend. I don't need a one sided friendship where its on me to start the conversation or they will not even acknowledge that I am there. Chance are we will not talk for awhile because since I've known her she has only ever started talking to me two maybe three times but nothing more then that.
She told me I was one of her closer friends but she doesn't really show it. There are so many people she prefers to talk to over me and thus why she never starts the conversations and why its always me. I love talking to her and all but its just not worth the effort anymore. No one person can carry any kind of relationship let it be a friendship or an actual relationship 100% of the time and that's what I tended to have to do.
In other news I have a friend that I like and would gladly go after or at least try to have a relationship with but the only problem with it is she lives long distance and I've said no to long distance because it has never worked for me. There have been multiple different other reasons besides distance but distance was ultimately the main factor is why they ended. If I could afford to travel at this point in my life I would but I am a broke 19 year old without a car nor even a license to be able to drive it. I do need to get my license so that this fall when my sister is gone I can take my nephew to school in the morning.
This are still lame for me and I've had no real drive to get out and look for a job even though I need to.
I told her I would leave her alone so she can talk to her friend and have not talked to her yet since then. I really do not plan on starting a conversation with her. She will just wander off on me or just not talk to me opting to chat with others leaving me to think she went and did something. Like I said we have not been talking all that much the past week. She keeps wandering off in the middle of conversations and not telling me anything. Its why I've decided to not start conversations with her. If she wants to talk she can feel free to talk to me but I'm done putting in the effort to be a friend. I don't need a one sided friendship where its on me to start the conversation or they will not even acknowledge that I am there. Chance are we will not talk for awhile because since I've known her she has only ever started talking to me two maybe three times but nothing more then that.
She told me I was one of her closer friends but she doesn't really show it. There are so many people she prefers to talk to over me and thus why she never starts the conversations and why its always me. I love talking to her and all but its just not worth the effort anymore. No one person can carry any kind of relationship let it be a friendship or an actual relationship 100% of the time and that's what I tended to have to do.
In other news I have a friend that I like and would gladly go after or at least try to have a relationship with but the only problem with it is she lives long distance and I've said no to long distance because it has never worked for me. There have been multiple different other reasons besides distance but distance was ultimately the main factor is why they ended. If I could afford to travel at this point in my life I would but I am a broke 19 year old without a car nor even a license to be able to drive it. I do need to get my license so that this fall when my sister is gone I can take my nephew to school in the morning.
This are still lame for me and I've had no real drive to get out and look for a job even though I need to.