Nate
I miss him. He was my first and only real love. I've changed so much and I know he has too, and I just think that now I'm out of all the mental stuff (at least... I have it under control), I think we can talk now and I just want to see him again... I miss him so much and I know he hates me. What I did to him was so completely wrong. I completely hate myself and I love him. It took me this long to realize that there's no one else in the world for me. I'm so so sorry. Nate, I don't know if you look at this stuff anymore... but this is public so you can read it. I love you. Talk to me. You know my phone numbers and screenname... :\