I said burr its cold in here... there must be some niners in the at-mo-sphere!...?
I swear, must you turn the a/c up so much. Yay, class break time.
I find it funny that so many "sexually in tune" people, as in those who can tell if somone is gay or straight, thought is was *completely* straight. It makes me feel kinda good really. First was monday when this guy Alex (i think) who is a self declared gayness wiz or something clamed that Brenden, in his tight white (umm hello after labor day... eww) jeans and incredibly small shirt just HAS to be gay. "Like, he's all over my gaydar." I of course deniy his claims because he and laura aparrently have some sort of thing going on, so... whatever. So he said he at least bi, and i agree, frankly. So i decided to test his gayness prowlness and asked him "ok, so what do you think I am?" He looked at me, as though he knew it was a trick question, but he was surprised that the trick was on him when i rebutted his claim of straightness, with a nice solid "im bi." He was shocked, amased, and amused- as the general concesus is... and expained about how cool he was with it, and how he had a gay roommate, ande i was just thinking he did his roommate, and i wouldnt put it past him to ask me over the summer. Then yesterday, my friend John seemed generally surprised with my answer however 'he suspected'- well id hope so, i dropped enough fucking clues moron. So all in all, i guess im happy about this. Why? Because it seems as though im not as flamingo as i previously thought myself to be. Now, granted, around certain people, i can/ am very campy, but that i think is only because i can be and its damn funny to "be gay," so, yay for that. *frolic*
So this puts one interesting 'relationship' if you will, in question. Yes, my model. Does he know, does he care? I mean, when me and David went out, it was kinda evident (in that he was alwas blushing kind of way), and he had bigmouthed friends who as far as i can tell told like all in the music department and probably the theater dept. (And at the time he, meaning my model, was in both- now only theater.) So could already know. The fact that he is just go damn...willing and open almost scares me. Its like hes almost sayin'please, fuck me, i want you to' and im am just kinda freaking out. I mean, should i tell him? If so,how? I guess VERY casually would be best, but i do not know how, really. I dont know. I do know that i feel like i want to tell him, for one reason or another. However, the concequence could be fatal. Including losing him as a friend, much less a much needed tool for my progression as an artist. *le sigh* oh well...
"I want you to want me, I need you to need me, I love you to love me, I'm begging you to beg me...."
I find it funny that so many "sexually in tune" people, as in those who can tell if somone is gay or straight, thought is was *completely* straight. It makes me feel kinda good really. First was monday when this guy Alex (i think) who is a self declared gayness wiz or something clamed that Brenden, in his tight white (umm hello after labor day... eww) jeans and incredibly small shirt just HAS to be gay. "Like, he's all over my gaydar." I of course deniy his claims because he and laura aparrently have some sort of thing going on, so... whatever. So he said he at least bi, and i agree, frankly. So i decided to test his gayness prowlness and asked him "ok, so what do you think I am?" He looked at me, as though he knew it was a trick question, but he was surprised that the trick was on him when i rebutted his claim of straightness, with a nice solid "im bi." He was shocked, amased, and amused- as the general concesus is... and expained about how cool he was with it, and how he had a gay roommate, ande i was just thinking he did his roommate, and i wouldnt put it past him to ask me over the summer. Then yesterday, my friend John seemed generally surprised with my answer however 'he suspected'- well id hope so, i dropped enough fucking clues moron. So all in all, i guess im happy about this. Why? Because it seems as though im not as flamingo as i previously thought myself to be. Now, granted, around certain people, i can/ am very campy, but that i think is only because i can be and its damn funny to "be gay," so, yay for that. *frolic*
So this puts one interesting 'relationship' if you will, in question. Yes, my model. Does he know, does he care? I mean, when me and David went out, it was kinda evident (in that he was alwas blushing kind of way), and he had bigmouthed friends who as far as i can tell told like all in the music department and probably the theater dept. (And at the time he, meaning my model, was in both- now only theater.) So could already know. The fact that he is just go damn...willing and open almost scares me. Its like hes almost sayin'please, fuck me, i want you to' and im am just kinda freaking out. I mean, should i tell him? If so,how? I guess VERY casually would be best, but i do not know how, really. I dont know. I do know that i feel like i want to tell him, for one reason or another. However, the concequence could be fatal. Including losing him as a friend, much less a much needed tool for my progression as an artist. *le sigh* oh well...
"I want you to want me, I need you to need me, I love you to love me, I'm begging you to beg me...."