his eyes...
Its a clear day, cool and collected as the winter should be. The bare trees shiver in the wind. I tighten my scarf to prevent a similar reaction. College is wonderful. Why? You ask. Boys. That is why kiddies. Cute college boys. They surround me like clouds the earth. I cannot escape them. Not that i mind. If only they were gay I tell myself. I pass them in hords conversing about our poor panthers, or some wet cunt they met last night. Of course... suspicions confermed. But every once and a while one makes me doubt. Its something simple really. A nod or a smile a hello from a stranger. Why? Is it that they know? Am I that that obvious? Could they see my eyes long for them? Do they want them to? Just eye contact and the Earth quakes. It opens up and swallows me whole 'what if' ringing into the darkness. But i will never know... was he just being nice, or was it more? "I've seen you before" "Hi there" "I fancy your pants" "Nice ass" All said in the flicker of a smile or in the gaze of a dashing blonde.
*le sigh* I try not to focus on such things. I have no chance in hell... Until he actually says something, i will not bother with such things. Of course, i could grow some balls myself, but every time i put myself out i get deneyed, the whole 'i like girls' thing sucks....
Dan~
*le sigh* I try not to focus on such things. I have no chance in hell... Until he actually says something, i will not bother with such things. Of course, i could grow some balls myself, but every time i put myself out i get deneyed, the whole 'i like girls' thing sucks....
Dan~