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Sometimes it's hard to slip between my two worlds. Spent the last week at home soaking up the love of so many friends and my family. Each day was a new opportunity to connect, catch-up, and feel fulfilled by the different strong relationships I've built over the years. But every day also reminded me that I wasn't at work. Doing a job that I find so meaninful and spending my time making lists and completing them--something i love to do.
Now I'm back in the 'burg and it's flipped. I'm excited to get to work tomorrow morning. I've already made lists in my head and a strategy for completing them. But at this home for just a few hours, I already feel lonely and isolated. I wonder how I'm going to fill the hours and where I'll find the social connection, the ability to share the more guarded parts of myself. Even with a plan for each of my evenings this week, I feel daunted by the days that stretch out in front of me, full of nothing but myself.
I literally feel like a different person depending on what city I am in with different strengths hopes and fears. And that makes me sad. I don't like feeling as if I slip out of one skin and into another. But such is my life right now. Hopefully soon I'll know better how to change that.
Now I'm back in the 'burg and it's flipped. I'm excited to get to work tomorrow morning. I've already made lists in my head and a strategy for completing them. But at this home for just a few hours, I already feel lonely and isolated. I wonder how I'm going to fill the hours and where I'll find the social connection, the ability to share the more guarded parts of myself. Even with a plan for each of my evenings this week, I feel daunted by the days that stretch out in front of me, full of nothing but myself.
I literally feel like a different person depending on what city I am in with different strengths hopes and fears. And that makes me sad. I don't like feeling as if I slip out of one skin and into another. But such is my life right now. Hopefully soon I'll know better how to change that.