La Rena
Sometimes I get into such weird moods, where everything seems to have too much meaning. I get hung up on little things, which mean nothing. And I just sit here, until my head hurts because I have thought everything over too much. And all the while I feel like there is nothing to fear about the upcoming days, nothing to be nervous about, and everything to feel comfortable about. And its true. There is nothing to be upset about. Sometimes I am so happy wtih all the people around me. Sometimes people make a lot effort towards me, and I feel like all the times I made an effort and got nothing back are finally paying off. All the times that I have sacrificed my wishes for others', all the times I have let something do something they wanted, without complaining, and all the times I called people and wanted to see them, its finnaly getting reciprocated. I love it. I have never felt this before. Finally people are doing what I have always felt that they never did.
With FG it's really new and interesting. We have such great times together when we do see each other, even though it may not be that often. I can really appreciate him for a lot of different reasons. He is outgoing, he is often the "shining star" of the social scene. One of the things that I find most positive is the fact that he actually likes when I make an effort to talk to him, or see him or whatever. He acts in a certain way that I haven't experienced before. I thought I scared him away by being so up front right off the bat, but he saved our IM conversation...
Well, it seems like my time for writing heart felt things is over.
With FG it's really new and interesting. We have such great times together when we do see each other, even though it may not be that often. I can really appreciate him for a lot of different reasons. He is outgoing, he is often the "shining star" of the social scene. One of the things that I find most positive is the fact that he actually likes when I make an effort to talk to him, or see him or whatever. He acts in a certain way that I haven't experienced before. I thought I scared him away by being so up front right off the bat, but he saved our IM conversation...
Well, it seems like my time for writing heart felt things is over.