im at that point.

[lost_opertunity]

where i have just stopped caring totally.
i hate myself.
i hate my life and everything else in it.
no one knows this about me though because everyone sees me and thinks im happy.

i havent rode in over two weeks.
im mentally and physically exhausted.
my lungs are shot from smoking.
and now im tearing my liver up cause i want to drink all the time.

im at the point where shit doesen't phase me anymore.
its terrible.

i just wish i could fine the time when i used to be happy.
and stay right there.

i guess ill just end this one as quick as i started, and i probably won't update for awhile again.

i guess ill just see you around....