life.
this is it.
ive found it.
part of it was left in the past
and i just picked up today.
after i exploded on the world.
ive come to so many realizations today.
i spoke with some old friends.
and ive really figured shit out.
im not letting you bother me anymore.
cause im done with you.
you were as shitty to me as i was to you.
you fucked another guy.
and you fucking hurt me bad more than once.
i never did that to you.
i really loved you.
and now i really feel as though it was a mistake.
maybe my time really was wasted.
maybe my bestfriends were right about you.
i really think they were.
and it really hit home.
after one phone call from an ex.
im better than this.
so im done.
be with him.
i dont give a shit.
do what you want.
whatever makes you happy.
but were not being friends again.
i can't.
and don't pretend you can either.
i loved you more than anyone.
and now somebody new is gonna get it all.
fuck dying.
im more alive than ever.
i felt amazing today.
just living life.
and i didnt smoke.
or take pills.
or drink.
im done with that too.
cause i don't need to get out of depression anymore.
i have people that care about me.
and i don't care if you did or didnt or still do or don't.
so fuck last year.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTION!
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, WITH MY DUDES, BE SAFE, BE HAPPY, AND DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT, START A NEW BAND THAT WILL FUCKING SHIT ON WHAT WE HAD BEFORE, BAMBOOZLE 07, MAINTAIN HIGHER THAN A 3.0, AND MOST OF ALL NOT DIE.
alright on another note.
Aj slept in my bed with the dogs blanket.
how funny is that.
we were wrecked.
and it was the best birthday ever.
better than last years by a million.
i was with my dudes.
and i was wrecked.
and i was surrounded by people who really loved me.
and that made me happy.
tommorrow is band practice.
and then thursday is fat's 19th party.
saturday is the pilot show.
hopefully we are going.
and thats that.
fuckyou.
goodnight.
ive found it.
part of it was left in the past
and i just picked up today.
after i exploded on the world.
ive come to so many realizations today.
i spoke with some old friends.
and ive really figured shit out.
im not letting you bother me anymore.
cause im done with you.
you were as shitty to me as i was to you.
you fucked another guy.
and you fucking hurt me bad more than once.
i never did that to you.
i really loved you.
and now i really feel as though it was a mistake.
maybe my time really was wasted.
maybe my bestfriends were right about you.
i really think they were.
and it really hit home.
after one phone call from an ex.
im better than this.
so im done.
be with him.
i dont give a shit.
do what you want.
whatever makes you happy.
but were not being friends again.
i can't.
and don't pretend you can either.
i loved you more than anyone.
and now somebody new is gonna get it all.
fuck dying.
im more alive than ever.
i felt amazing today.
just living life.
and i didnt smoke.
or take pills.
or drink.
im done with that too.
cause i don't need to get out of depression anymore.
i have people that care about me.
and i don't care if you did or didnt or still do or don't.
so fuck last year.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTION!
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, WITH MY DUDES, BE SAFE, BE HAPPY, AND DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT, START A NEW BAND THAT WILL FUCKING SHIT ON WHAT WE HAD BEFORE, BAMBOOZLE 07, MAINTAIN HIGHER THAN A 3.0, AND MOST OF ALL NOT DIE.
alright on another note.
Aj slept in my bed with the dogs blanket.
how funny is that.
we were wrecked.
and it was the best birthday ever.
better than last years by a million.
i was with my dudes.
and i was wrecked.
and i was surrounded by people who really loved me.
and that made me happy.
tommorrow is band practice.
and then thursday is fat's 19th party.
saturday is the pilot show.
hopefully we are going.
and thats that.
fuckyou.
goodnight.