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[lost_n_ur_smile]

i feel so low right now. like i did a few weeks ago with nick.. maybe worse. maybe im so upset 1. b/c im pmsing... or 2. b/c i put up with 6mos of liking this boy and waiting around and getting fucked ovr 2wice.. just b/c i really wanted to be with him b/c i felt like we had the connection to make it work... HAH how ironic can life me.. the reason why we're not working out is b/c we're missing that connection. six months of a connection and then BOOm right when we strt dating its gone? i feel a connection, i know we have one. btu yea there are times when i feel like there isnt. i mean we get along.. have fun togheter.. i dont see what could POSSiBlY be that missing connection. but it isnt there from time to time for me.. but i guess all the time 4 him...

i am upset that things perhaps might end b/t us. but idk what hurts more,.. that i fell for this fucking relationship stuff again or that i keep falling for guys i cant have a relationship with longer than a month. I think we just need space... we see each other everyday.. but the more we see each other to more use to each other we get and we get bored and then there goes that connection.. i hate when i cant see him.. but me not seeing jacob all the time made us last 7mo. hmm.... space is a good idea.. maybe we just shouldnt see each other everyday like we use too.. b/c b/4 we saw each other maybe 2-3 times a wk. maybe sumtimes 4.. and thatll give him time with his boys and w/e.. idk... comment please