ready for the new life????

[lost_n_hurt]

so i moved in today, which is awesome cuz i have freedom to do what i want when i want but i am also worried, tho i would never want to admit it..... what if i dont fit in.....i know i had a bunch of ppl at SCCC but my main hangout buddy was a morman woman in her early thirties, no offense i love her dearly and i wouldnt take it back for the world, but its not normal to want to hang out with an older person rather than peers, in a way i know why, but it doesnt make it any easier,when i was packing i told dar i just want a guy in college and she was like you dont need one, mom always says the same thing. i know i dont NEED one but i would like one

i guess the thing that bothers me the most is always being one of the guys, when i came to orientation i hung out with all the guys and the girl i was rooming with bailed (left the room) half way through the night, for once id like to be one of those girls that the guys like, and i know this sounds stupid or whatever, but its true...dont get me wrong i will always be a loyal friend to guys its just that i want to be that person that is happily dating rather then always being the third wheel, and i know some of you will write being single is awesome or that its not as big of a deal as it seems, but i want to make that decision, i want a guy to ask me out not cuz he thinks he can knock me up but because i actually mean something to him......