May 17, 2009 09:56
I'm glad you are safe in China. Sounds exciting thus far. Sleep well.
I had another terrible dream last night. This time I woke up crying. It all felt so real that I am kind of scared to go back to sleep.
I'm a little upset about the way/mood Patrick left the U.S./last time we spoke feeling about me. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I feel like a huge fuck up.
My dream last night has woken me up in a funk. I want today to be a good day.
My nose has already profusely bled everywhere. I have dried up tears all over my face. But on a happy note, my internship teaching is officially done. So now I only have my summer job#1 to worry about. I plan on getting another job to keep my mind busy, but no one has gotten back to me.
I move into Warren tomorrow and my job will officially begin. I also should be getting my new computer tomorrow. That's pretty exciting. So as it seems, today is a day of grieving. Tomorrow should be better. i hope.
I miss and love you Patrick.
say and mean that you love me.