Not myself ..
So I just noticed it will probably be another lonely Christmas for me, my family doesn't even live close to me. The only way I can get to them is going on a plane to visit them. But we haven't met eye to eye since last time I visited..
I just don't see the point of being merry when there is nothing to be merry about, life is the same as always. Always bored and always alone, there is nothing for me to change this..it will only be a miracle if something happened.
I'm not sure what to do be even happy anymore..it's not like me to be jealous of other people but I guess I'm starting to get that way.
I just better lay low so my jealous habits won't sink out, I don't think I will buy Christmas presents this year..I'm not sure yet..
Being depressed and jealous of stupid things aren't the nicest things in the world..