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So... when we had that "double suicide" at school, it was really hard for me to deal with and still kinda is... Jake was in my class and I never talked to him, not even once... so I didn't know him as well as everyone else did so I refused to let people know I was upset about it. I would have breakdowns of crying and not wanting anything to touch me or I'd freak out. I regret not talking to Jake, so every once in awhile I talk to him just to say hi.. since I never got the chance to, but I always though about it when he was there. So it was hard for me to get through all of that, and it's still kinda hard, but I thought everyone else needed (his friends) needed to talk about it, not me. I figure if I'm feeling this way, so are some of you guys! So I wanted to share my "coping song" with you.. if it wasn't for this song, I'd still be a mess underneath, about all of it!
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor
They found him face down on his bedroom floor
There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?
I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...
-Blaine Larsen
It helped me a lot!
So anywho... school is going good... I need to bring my grades up a lot because my dad wants me to get the "good student discount" on my insurance, but it's gonna be hard! I'm going to prom next weekend... I'm so excited! OoOo!!!!! my news of today is... I applied at the "99cents only" store... I don't really want to work at a dollar store, but they start out pay at $7.00 an hour and I'd get a raise after 3 months!! So as long as I get my car that much faster then I'm excited! I hope I get the job though. The next place I want to apply is Albertsons or the Car spa! I need a job sooooo bad! Me and Kyle have been really good lately... well I have my own issues with jealousy and I hate it because I hate to be the jealous type, but I am!... but when I get jealous, it makes me realize how much I love him because I feel so mad at him and stuff, but when I talk to him I think about how much he loves me and I know there's no way he loves anyone more than me... but I'm a bad girlfriend who is just really insecure... i take that back, I'm an awesome girlfriend! Anyone would be lucky to have me, and kyle is very lucky! (but I'm also lucky to have him) I've been having parental controls on updating my journal, so if I go a long time without updatig... that's why! Well, I love you guys! I hope (if you need it) that my "coping song" will help you cope! MWAH!
Hugs & Kisses,
Chantal
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor
They found him face down on his bedroom floor
There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?
I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...
-Blaine Larsen
It helped me a lot!
So anywho... school is going good... I need to bring my grades up a lot because my dad wants me to get the "good student discount" on my insurance, but it's gonna be hard! I'm going to prom next weekend... I'm so excited! OoOo!!!!! my news of today is... I applied at the "99cents only" store... I don't really want to work at a dollar store, but they start out pay at $7.00 an hour and I'd get a raise after 3 months!! So as long as I get my car that much faster then I'm excited! I hope I get the job though. The next place I want to apply is Albertsons or the Car spa! I need a job sooooo bad! Me and Kyle have been really good lately... well I have my own issues with jealousy and I hate it because I hate to be the jealous type, but I am!... but when I get jealous, it makes me realize how much I love him because I feel so mad at him and stuff, but when I talk to him I think about how much he loves me and I know there's no way he loves anyone more than me... but I'm a bad girlfriend who is just really insecure... i take that back, I'm an awesome girlfriend! Anyone would be lucky to have me, and kyle is very lucky! (but I'm also lucky to have him) I've been having parental controls on updating my journal, so if I go a long time without updatig... that's why! Well, I love you guys! I hope (if you need it) that my "coping song" will help you cope! MWAH!
Hugs & Kisses,
Chantal