...Lights out...

[lost_lust]

I am so stressed right now! and I have parental controls on most of your journals, and I can't read the comments in my freestyle entry, so I'm bummed! But ya... so Kyle came over yesterday and we were having fun, but I was kinda grouchy so it wasn't the HAPPIEST of times, but it was a really fun/good day! And to top it all of... Luke called!... but then I was talking to luke and didn't think it was a big deal cuz Kyle knows we're friends and I don't get to talk to luke often anymore, so I chose to talk to luke! But then my mom and sister start yelling at me for being on the phone while kyle is here, and I think it's so retarded! If I talked to Luke everyday it would be a different story, but since Luke is all the way on the other side of the country and he called me to talk, I'm not gonna just get off the phone to please everyone else! So I'm really bothered and annoyed by that, and totally pissed off that I can't talk to anyone else without my whole family defending Kyle! It's not like I'm gonna run away with Luke and do something wrong! It's just retarded... and my family should not be the ones to tell me what to do when it comes to my friends! my mom won't let me hang out with my friends! Did I tell you guys about that? She says "you're friends are boys, and boys can do stuff to you, and you need to grow up and start to realize this!" wtf is that? I know most of my friends are boys, and I know what boys can do to me... but my friends can't do that to me! Well they could if they really wanted to, but I don't think friends could do crap to eachother if they were really friends! But she's so steriotypical and she doesn't care that not all boys are rapists! It's riduculous! and of course Kyle would probably take my family's side since not all boyfriends want their girlfriends hanging out with guys... so basically everyone is teaming against me.. except for my friends who actually want to just hang out with me and not rape me! So basically I'm stressed, and the people who I talk to everyday (my family and I guess Kyle could pertain) doesn't care about what I want and what I like to do... it's all about how they see it and what they want! And I'm not saying that Kyle is taking their side cuz I don't know how he sees it all, but any other boyfriend would!

Other than that, life sucks, nothing matters anymore... and I'm just fed up with everything!