I have scaled these city walls, only to be with you.. but i still havent found what im looking for
so i sit here thinking to myself...
and there is so much going on in my life that I cannot sort out the emotions
i'm used to feeling an overwhelming amount of each emotions, im not used to multiple
*My Kappa big key sis is Kim :) and Im soo happy because she's super sweet and totally spoiled me this week for big-little week
*I was soo happy and felt so good because my whole Kappa family got together, INCLUDING my Great-Great-Grandbig who already graduated and is doing her Grad work at OSU. she drove up just to see me and the family and have margarita night :)
*I need to talk to someone from home sooo much, cus i have more feelings for him than I was willing to admit over christmas break, and now I regret that terribly and miss him more than i could have imagined. I cant even begin to explain the friendship we built over the last few years.
*I am sooo frustrated with my classes right now. I think that even though i'm doing pretty ok, i'll never be able to get the grades i want
*I am excited yet nervous that i will be seeing my mom on tuesday. everytime we talk, she makes me feel like im not good enough even though im trying soo hard to be everything i know she wants me to be. I feel like she compares me to my sisters even though i know that i'm probably better off than they, because they both have kids. dont get me wrong, i love my niece and nephew more than the entire world, Aubry & Daniel = my happiness
*I feel like my friends expect more of me than i can give. friends from home wanting advice on things that i cant help. i'm 100 miles away, what do you want me to do? as much as it pains me to say this, i thing my friends here take advantage of me. my stuff=my stuff. i dont share well, so dont ask. and dont ask me for a ride somewhere if you dont plan on giving me gas money or asking me well in advance. just because you dont have a car doesnt mean i become your taxi service. unless i offer a ride, find rides elsewhere... or heres an idea: WALK! im not made of money and my car doesnt appreciate being taken advantage of, and neither do i
andrea is fed up with people,
but oddly content at the same time