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When you wanna show someone you care, you don't trash talk and drag their face in your self righteous shit pile. You tell them you miss them. That's all it takes...it isn't about pointing blame...it isn't about who spends more time in whatever place. When you miss someone...you tell them. I fail to see why it's hard to understand why people aren't attracted to being pushed around and trampled on. No matter what I did..I had people walking all over me..turning their noses up at my every attempt because it didn't suit their ideas. I'm done trying to please people.
I didn't pull away. I felt I was being handed my hat and roughly shoved out the door. I made that known several times, but no one wanted to listen. It was far easier to say I was over reacting or overly sensitive to your jealousy and unrealistic expectations, then to step back and take a true, good and honest look at the way you treated me..the shit you said about me...and the way you made me feel. So I got fed up..and now I'm done. And as far as thinking I'm gonna come crying back? With petty attitude dished out like that week after week after week, who would want to? Take a lesson from the only one out of you I even talk to anymore.
I don't care what people think of me anymore. I've changed. And it's for the better. I know it is because I -feel- better about the kind of person I am. I'm not a doormat anymore. And if anyone had or continues to have a problem with it, then..I'm truly sorry..but it's not my problem anymore.
I have way more important things going on in my life to worry about, then to sit and fret over what I can do to please people. What I can do to make people like me. What I gotta do to sit the fence and please everyone and make sure no one's mad at me. Because that's exactly what I tried to do. I tried to please everyone..all sides of the situation. And in the end..logically, it made more sense to surround myself with the people that I didn't even have to -try- to please. The people that didn't try to force me into taking sides. The people that didn't try to tell me what I could or couldn't do. I'm done with it all now. The only person I'm concerned with making happy is myself. And that's the way it should be.
I didn't pull away. I felt I was being handed my hat and roughly shoved out the door. I made that known several times, but no one wanted to listen. It was far easier to say I was over reacting or overly sensitive to your jealousy and unrealistic expectations, then to step back and take a true, good and honest look at the way you treated me..the shit you said about me...and the way you made me feel. So I got fed up..and now I'm done. And as far as thinking I'm gonna come crying back? With petty attitude dished out like that week after week after week, who would want to? Take a lesson from the only one out of you I even talk to anymore.
I don't care what people think of me anymore. I've changed. And it's for the better. I know it is because I -feel- better about the kind of person I am. I'm not a doormat anymore. And if anyone had or continues to have a problem with it, then..I'm truly sorry..but it's not my problem anymore.
I have way more important things going on in my life to worry about, then to sit and fret over what I can do to please people. What I can do to make people like me. What I gotta do to sit the fence and please everyone and make sure no one's mad at me. Because that's exactly what I tried to do. I tried to please everyone..all sides of the situation. And in the end..logically, it made more sense to surround myself with the people that I didn't even have to -try- to please. The people that didn't try to force me into taking sides. The people that didn't try to tell me what I could or couldn't do. I'm done with it all now. The only person I'm concerned with making happy is myself. And that's the way it should be.