life is over
Well life is evil I have no TJ and there is nothing else tht is rlly worth living for ne more I still cant believe tht Friday during school I was like I hope me and TJ last a rlly long time cuz I like rlly like him and then tht night he dumps me! And practically in the xact same spot he asked me out and almost at the xact same time too! Omg I don’t have anything to live for seriously I want to die so bad right now I was so happy with TJ I had waited so long for the slightest chance that we would get bak together and we did and I was so fucking happy I was like yea im going out wit TJ life is good! but no it just couldn’t stay tht way it had to go and get all fucked up it just couldn’t stay a happy little relationship! I got all depressed 2day when I was eating skittles and I was like Alana I used to put skittles down TJ’s shirt and then I was happy and TJ was happy and the skittle was happy but no now I’m sad and the skittles sad and TJ’s not sad cuz he’s a fucker and he dumped me! I mean at least I thought TJ was happy I mean he seemed happy but wut if he was just pretending to b happy so I would b happy? I mean I nvr thought about tht wut if he nvr was happy wut if he nvr rlly liked me? Wut if he just went out wit me cuz so many ppl were asking him if he liked me and were telling him tht I liked him? Wut if he was just going out wit me so he could dump me and get bak at me for dumping him last year? Do u seriously think he would do tht? Is he rlly tht kind of prsn? I mean do I even rlly kno wut kind of a guy he is now? I barely knew the real him last year when we went out wut makes me think I rlly know wut type of a guy he is now? Omg I cant believe I nvr thought of these things! I cant believe I’m so stupid how could I nvr have thought about tht crap? y was I so blind? I was just happy tht we were bak together I nvr thought about y we were bak together?! Omg I’m so stupid!
<3 Lauren
<3 Lauren