beginning of the end
It's been a weird week. Back in school. Last semester. How do I deal with school, study register take my lisw exam and pass (I'm not paying for it twice, make sure I have a new job when I graduate (I'm not working this job after I graduate. I refuse to work for a boss who doesn't do her job and getting paid what I could get paid with my H.S. Diploma.) and still remain sane.
I'm difinitely scared. There are a few things that make me feel grounded during all of this. Kail is amazing. I felt like I got hit by a bus this morning and he made me sleep in more. Jacci makes my weekends at work more tolerable. Which was evidenced by the fact that she was sick yesterday and so Saturday at work just drag on. Saturday morning class also helps. I haven't felt like I was truly learning this much in a class since my underground. I understand theories are important and policy is important also but in his class I'm actually learning content I'm going to use in the field. Plus he's smart but not pretentious and worn in but not burnt out.
My sleep has been really weird lately. Wide awake a lot of nights, Lots of talking in my sleep, quitting breathing in my sleep and slamming body parts into the wall.
Everyone knows I have problems with anxiety but I don't get panic attacks. I may feel panicky and want to escape a situation but I'm always in control. Friday I almost lost that control. Thankfully with my research and experience with working with others with panic disorder I was able to avoid the attack and calm my self down. Focusing on breathing really does work. Now if I could only convince my client of that.
Lost of no shows the last two weeks at my internship. A few individuals doing spectacular though. Maybe I am decent at this. It gives me hope.
Anyways enough of my rambling I have an assignment to do before work.
I'm difinitely scared. There are a few things that make me feel grounded during all of this. Kail is amazing. I felt like I got hit by a bus this morning and he made me sleep in more. Jacci makes my weekends at work more tolerable. Which was evidenced by the fact that she was sick yesterday and so Saturday at work just drag on. Saturday morning class also helps. I haven't felt like I was truly learning this much in a class since my underground. I understand theories are important and policy is important also but in his class I'm actually learning content I'm going to use in the field. Plus he's smart but not pretentious and worn in but not burnt out.
My sleep has been really weird lately. Wide awake a lot of nights, Lots of talking in my sleep, quitting breathing in my sleep and slamming body parts into the wall.
Everyone knows I have problems with anxiety but I don't get panic attacks. I may feel panicky and want to escape a situation but I'm always in control. Friday I almost lost that control. Thankfully with my research and experience with working with others with panic disorder I was able to avoid the attack and calm my self down. Focusing on breathing really does work. Now if I could only convince my client of that.
Lost of no shows the last two weeks at my internship. A few individuals doing spectacular though. Maybe I am decent at this. It gives me hope.
Anyways enough of my rambling I have an assignment to do before work.