Bored AND Apathetic
This weekend has seen an unusual level of productivity and production in the house thanks to the presence of littlelinda667, markachu, ironlord, shallowthing and Mike. No need to thank us for having you here it's always good having you lot round.
I've noticed that I'm getting more and more anti-social lately, I put this down to work and the general apathy (see; the title was relevant) that I have towards doing anything that involves this game. Hopefully I can get into this database thing that I must do over the next 2 to 4 weeks. I doubt it though.
The apathy is I think more todo with not having created anything that I actually give a flying fuck about game wise in so long that it took doing some shitty mini-games to remind me that games can be simple (even if those specific ones did suck) and fun.
Before everyone chips in with the usual "start your own games company" it really ain't that simple. I could pour the little that I have into doing a tech demo or something for a couple of months, maybe 3 at the outset. Then I'd be broke and unemployed. Hmm how tempting is that, I'd probably end up working at GAME again :/ Any leaving of any company now would have to be into something that I'd want to pour some heart and soul into, but not only that it would need to have a future, one that would feed, house and cloth me! In one way that was why I came to join where I am now. I knew that I wouldn't be jumping into making the "greatest-game-ever!?!?!" or anything of the sort, in fact I knew that this would be EXACTLY how I felt once I got onto the MMO again, so please forgive the out-pour of whinging. I joined because it allowed me to have a little bit more life outside of work again, to save some money and to work with people that I knew I could trust.
Some of that has gone awry with the being sent to Leamington bullshit but at least I got to eat a LOT of pretty good food and for all that I couldn't drag him into an Indian restaurant thedarkproject is pretty good company. There I go again, I'm fed up with stuff, bored (theres that other title relevant bit) and I still see the upsides.
The boredom. Ah now boredom with me (as i'm sure it is with many others) is a peculiar beast. It's not that there aren't things to do. Even things that I want to do, it's just that when I try to do them I am still bored. Not making sense? Ok, it's not that I'm bored through lack of interesting things it's that the boredom is a state that is inflicted or projected onto whatever it is that I'm doing. Usually there's something else on my mind that I need to clear but right now I think that's the whole job apathy thing above and well... I've got no way of dealing with that or it'd be done. So I'm bored, and I'm bored because of the apathy towards my job, and the apathy is due to the work being unfulfilling because it's always someone elses dream/idea/money-making-shit that I'm involved in.
I need a better hobby.
Think I'm just having a down day, though check back when I post next week that I never want to see code again for as long as I live.
Night night ladies and gentlemen, I may change the title to "Boredom, Apathy and Procrastination" just so that you all know, that I know, that I am talking out of my arse.
Yeti
I've noticed that I'm getting more and more anti-social lately, I put this down to work and the general apathy (see; the title was relevant) that I have towards doing anything that involves this game. Hopefully I can get into this database thing that I must do over the next 2 to 4 weeks. I doubt it though.
The apathy is I think more todo with not having created anything that I actually give a flying fuck about game wise in so long that it took doing some shitty mini-games to remind me that games can be simple (even if those specific ones did suck) and fun.
Before everyone chips in with the usual "start your own games company" it really ain't that simple. I could pour the little that I have into doing a tech demo or something for a couple of months, maybe 3 at the outset. Then I'd be broke and unemployed. Hmm how tempting is that, I'd probably end up working at GAME again :/ Any leaving of any company now would have to be into something that I'd want to pour some heart and soul into, but not only that it would need to have a future, one that would feed, house and cloth me! In one way that was why I came to join where I am now. I knew that I wouldn't be jumping into making the "greatest-game-ever!?!?!" or anything of the sort, in fact I knew that this would be EXACTLY how I felt once I got onto the MMO again, so please forgive the out-pour of whinging. I joined because it allowed me to have a little bit more life outside of work again, to save some money and to work with people that I knew I could trust.
Some of that has gone awry with the being sent to Leamington bullshit but at least I got to eat a LOT of pretty good food and for all that I couldn't drag him into an Indian restaurant thedarkproject is pretty good company. There I go again, I'm fed up with stuff, bored (theres that other title relevant bit) and I still see the upsides.
The boredom. Ah now boredom with me (as i'm sure it is with many others) is a peculiar beast. It's not that there aren't things to do. Even things that I want to do, it's just that when I try to do them I am still bored. Not making sense? Ok, it's not that I'm bored through lack of interesting things it's that the boredom is a state that is inflicted or projected onto whatever it is that I'm doing. Usually there's something else on my mind that I need to clear but right now I think that's the whole job apathy thing above and well... I've got no way of dealing with that or it'd be done. So I'm bored, and I'm bored because of the apathy towards my job, and the apathy is due to the work being unfulfilling because it's always someone elses dream/idea/money-making-shit that I'm involved in.
I need a better hobby.
Think I'm just having a down day, though check back when I post next week that I never want to see code again for as long as I live.
Night night ladies and gentlemen, I may change the title to "Boredom, Apathy and Procrastination" just so that you all know, that I know, that I am talking out of my arse.
Yeti