What is wrong with me!
Lately I have been in the worst mood and i feel really bad about it. I've been making rude comments about stuff, snapping at people and just i dn being all mean. I really don't mean any of it. I'm just in the worst mood ever and i don't know why. Well accually I do. I'm stressed with school, tennis, people in gerneral, the thought of everything coming to an end is freaking me out and i'm not looking forward to anything. The term ends tommorow and i'm doing bad in every single one of my classes. I just gave up term 3 and didn't even try. Which sucks cause I'm doing bad now. I have so much make up work i don't even want to think about so you know what i did? Took none of it home. Why am i so stupid. I don't get algebra 2 at all. I have no idea whats going on in that class and no one shuts up long enough to learn anything anyways. Lets hope this vacation is good. I can't take school anymore. Ok term 4 i'm gonna try and really try to do good. No slacking off.
Also tennis is pissing me off. Same problems as last year. The coach absolutely hates me. She keeps playing me JV and doesn't even watch. She watches every other match except when i'm playing. Then shes like oh good job i saw some good points. No you didn't asshole!! I hate her!!! And I know we're just gonna loose every single game so theres no point in even trying. I just never want to do anything anymore. And no offense to anyone but depending on who i play either helps or doesn't help how i play. When i'm practicing and playing singles i do so much better then doubles. The only person i get mad at is myself. But she won't play me on singles cause she thinks i'm not good enough and cause theres already people who are. And also when i'm in a match and theres people watching me i screw up. When i'm just playing for fun i do so much better. This is crap!
I miss Les Mis. But i'm happy we might be doing it again. The only bad thing about that is that its the same day as nationals for dance. I already missed 1 competition and i'm not missing nationals. Why is everything scheduled on the same day. I mean theres 365 days in a year don't you think they could make things on different days. I'm doing relay for life again. I really hope its as fun as last year. I hate when the first time you do something its really fun then it seems like when you do it again it doesn't seem as fun as the last time. Same with tennis. Last year was fun and for some reason i don't see that happening again. Its early so no one knows. I need a job too. Another thing to worry about. I need a job so i can get money. I have no time for a job though!!
that felt good to get out. All I can do is look forward to vacation. Then summer! I need the summer so badly right now. Just being able to relax and worry about nothing. Being with my friends all day. And going swimming at the beach...i cant wait!
Also tennis is pissing me off. Same problems as last year. The coach absolutely hates me. She keeps playing me JV and doesn't even watch. She watches every other match except when i'm playing. Then shes like oh good job i saw some good points. No you didn't asshole!! I hate her!!! And I know we're just gonna loose every single game so theres no point in even trying. I just never want to do anything anymore. And no offense to anyone but depending on who i play either helps or doesn't help how i play. When i'm practicing and playing singles i do so much better then doubles. The only person i get mad at is myself. But she won't play me on singles cause she thinks i'm not good enough and cause theres already people who are. And also when i'm in a match and theres people watching me i screw up. When i'm just playing for fun i do so much better. This is crap!
I miss Les Mis. But i'm happy we might be doing it again. The only bad thing about that is that its the same day as nationals for dance. I already missed 1 competition and i'm not missing nationals. Why is everything scheduled on the same day. I mean theres 365 days in a year don't you think they could make things on different days. I'm doing relay for life again. I really hope its as fun as last year. I hate when the first time you do something its really fun then it seems like when you do it again it doesn't seem as fun as the last time. Same with tennis. Last year was fun and for some reason i don't see that happening again. Its early so no one knows. I need a job too. Another thing to worry about. I need a job so i can get money. I have no time for a job though!!
that felt good to get out. All I can do is look forward to vacation. Then summer! I need the summer so badly right now. Just being able to relax and worry about nothing. Being with my friends all day. And going swimming at the beach...i cant wait!