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so things aren't going the best right now..in fact I just feel like a nobody and wish that I had someone right now..My bestfriend is mad at me for whatever reason and it sucks because I don't understand why she is making a big deal out of it.HE has no clue.Jeremy and I are never going to get things straightened out I always fuck up when it comes to him..he won't talk to me anymore.It sucks when you want someone as a friend more than anything and they want nothing to do with you.I keep trying to reassure myself that everything is going to be okay but I just don't know this time..I don't want to lose another bestfriend over something like this.As for everything with HIM thats just confusing more than anything..Jeremy just pisses me off because I can never do anything right with him.I MEAN NOTHING.He never wants anything to do with me when he has someone but when he doesn't its like I'm first in line for him to hang out with because he knows I'll be there.I guess its sucks to know that I'm used for something.And the sad things is I'll go for it anytime.I care about Jeremy I always have but being anything more than his friend at THAT moment was out of the question.I guess things could be worse..right?Everything will turn out how it is suppose to.goodnight.