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Dear Jona,
Its been a while.
i miss you a lot.
I started grade 11.
I miss you a lot because i went to the peer, and felt alone and scared because I was all alone.
I went to ottawa for the weekend, too bad you couldnt come.
Halloween was shitty.
Christmas was good, i got a camara and a cool kick ass blanket that had skulls on it and a lot of smelly stuff that you would like.
March break wasn't as much fun and i thought it would be, mostlu because I didn't get to see you.
Valentien's Day was cool because I got captian nigger, and it was the day that it was too icy for mr to walk to school and i was like "No thank-you I'm not going!" and i got Hailey to come over and play, Fallon came too and sorry that I had to cancel that trip to montreal, but you went around to do it i guess.
Our birth day passed, and i missed you a lot and i wanted to see you so badly, but i got high like we planed to.
Your day is comming up soon, it will be one year.
Im so scared,
sad,
worried,
broken
because all i can do is think about you.
Your foster parents called me saturday, it was so sweet of them to make me a memory box of you, but im just too heart broken to really see a picture, let a lone a box... the thing i last saw you in.
God i miss you.
You = jona, who i was in love with.
You had my heart, but instead, you killed yourself.
Guess i wasn't good enough? God i miss you a lot.
I wish you didnt have to do that.
You shouldnt have done that.
Fuck you for doing that.
I ment nothing to you if you thought that you had to kill yourself on your fucking floor.
No one knows how long i sat there crying on you blood stained floor thinking "Why did you leave me you whore!! I needed you more then you think!" And no matter how hard i try, you always stay on my mind.
I hope you know your aunt who tourtured you sent me a letter saying, shit that wasn't true okay? I wish she was dead instead of you.
Why did you take your life?
Why?
How? Don't...but you did.
I know i shouldn't be angry at you, but i fucking am!
You were the best thing to happen to me, and you knew that. So why did you decide to do that? Was it involentary? did those sleeping pills and blood thinners just fall into your mouth and you just decided to swallow them? And did the blade just happen to cut just deep enough that you bleed till you just couldnt any more?
fuck.
I hate how you ended.
Like a emo kid with balls.
God i miss you too much.
Why dose it still hurt?
So i saw your appartment, it looks nice now.
The new person who took it over really made its shine.
Too bad they ripped out the flooring, becuase now i dont have a spot to kill myself.
But i wont because i know what its like to lose someone you love.
And im just hopping that someone actually dose, because why would i want to stay here if no one did?
Im getting a sleeve done, its a robot, its gonna have stars and binary codes with green!.
I still miss you, and i know no matter how many times i say i miss you.. your never comming back
Sincearly yours,
Joshua Ryan Reay Duguay.
Its been a while.
i miss you a lot.
I started grade 11.
I miss you a lot because i went to the peer, and felt alone and scared because I was all alone.
I went to ottawa for the weekend, too bad you couldnt come.
Halloween was shitty.
Christmas was good, i got a camara and a cool kick ass blanket that had skulls on it and a lot of smelly stuff that you would like.
March break wasn't as much fun and i thought it would be, mostlu because I didn't get to see you.
Valentien's Day was cool because I got captian nigger, and it was the day that it was too icy for mr to walk to school and i was like "No thank-you I'm not going!" and i got Hailey to come over and play, Fallon came too and sorry that I had to cancel that trip to montreal, but you went around to do it i guess.
Our birth day passed, and i missed you a lot and i wanted to see you so badly, but i got high like we planed to.
Your day is comming up soon, it will be one year.
Im so scared,
sad,
worried,
broken
because all i can do is think about you.
Your foster parents called me saturday, it was so sweet of them to make me a memory box of you, but im just too heart broken to really see a picture, let a lone a box... the thing i last saw you in.
God i miss you.
You = jona, who i was in love with.
You had my heart, but instead, you killed yourself.
Guess i wasn't good enough? God i miss you a lot.
I wish you didnt have to do that.
You shouldnt have done that.
Fuck you for doing that.
I ment nothing to you if you thought that you had to kill yourself on your fucking floor.
No one knows how long i sat there crying on you blood stained floor thinking "Why did you leave me you whore!! I needed you more then you think!" And no matter how hard i try, you always stay on my mind.
I hope you know your aunt who tourtured you sent me a letter saying, shit that wasn't true okay? I wish she was dead instead of you.
Why did you take your life?
Why?
How? Don't...but you did.
I know i shouldn't be angry at you, but i fucking am!
You were the best thing to happen to me, and you knew that. So why did you decide to do that? Was it involentary? did those sleeping pills and blood thinners just fall into your mouth and you just decided to swallow them? And did the blade just happen to cut just deep enough that you bleed till you just couldnt any more?
fuck.
I hate how you ended.
Like a emo kid with balls.
God i miss you too much.
Why dose it still hurt?
So i saw your appartment, it looks nice now.
The new person who took it over really made its shine.
Too bad they ripped out the flooring, becuase now i dont have a spot to kill myself.
But i wont because i know what its like to lose someone you love.
And im just hopping that someone actually dose, because why would i want to stay here if no one did?
Im getting a sleeve done, its a robot, its gonna have stars and binary codes with green!.
I still miss you, and i know no matter how many times i say i miss you.. your never comming back
Sincearly yours,
Joshua Ryan Reay Duguay.