Speeding into the horizon!
It feels as if im speeding into the horizon not knowing where im going, but i getting to the location fast. Lost w/o anyone to guide my direction..but i continue to go forward..cuz thats all i know! But what im standing on is sinking in, and i dont have a clue how to get off of it. Everything thats was supposed to help me, has left me behind w/o thinking about, how will i be w/o them. My days go up and down constantly, as if im stuck on a broken elevator in life. When will it stay in one spot, so i can think for jus one secound. Who am i? What am i like? Am i that way? Am i that bad? Am i that good? Was it this? Was it That? i have no clue..I try to feel one way about something before it happens but then i feel another way when it happens. Am i making things up in my mind just so i can give myself something to do..or are these questions and feeling real? I cant tell if anything is real anymore..as in friends..Desiree..is she my friend..how her jokes piss me off...how she tells me rock is white people who scream in a microphone...or as she calls it"White people music". And how her lack of understanding..makes me want to spit in her face. Lots of things have been on my mind..like my old friend Jazmine..killed herself early this November...I am sad but im tryin not to cry in school right now...ill wait for home. I have to tell michelle, but how am i going to tell her..shes expecting her new husband to get there..and make her sad life happy again..i dont think its right for me to tell her now..ill wait. jazmine had a sharp tongue but was hella funny. Im sure my and michelle will miss her.
Well, this weekend was really fun..cant tell you why but it just did:)
P.s. this is just a taste of what goes on in MOJ(myownjournal.com)
Well, this weekend was really fun..cant tell you why but it just did:)
P.s. this is just a taste of what goes on in MOJ(myownjournal.com)