It's Really EARLY!!!
ok well it's the band lock in.. it's about 3 am.... and I'm tired as hell... we set up our band's -"With Nothing On"- stuff and we played that it was good got to hear how it'll sound for Battle of the Bands... it's gonna rock.... Ate Pizza had a 2 liter of Mt. Dew myself, mixed with 2 Red Bulls... I didn't get my wings.. must be too bad of a person... sad... Lifes same as it has always been lately.. if you talk to me you know how that is... anyways... after eating we played a bit more... I broke the drum kicker... Ms. G was pissed... it's not my fault the thing is a Damn PIECE OF SHIT!! srry it is though... we went through old band pictures.. I found one of me at Apple Pie weekend from 1997.. I used to be so cute.... so much promise.. another thing I failed at I guess... I get depressed this early in the morning.. I shoulda brought my 6 month cd I always listen to it before bed.. I usually get really depressed about 1 in the morning... and that sometimes help... at least I can listen to the words and know she once felt that way about me.. even if I did Fuck it up... I've had enough peeps tell me I did the right thing to believe I did.. I should stop hoping and start getting over it... it's gonna be hard... but suicide isn't an option... I'm that selfish... ugh anyways off topic.. after pics we played some Xbox... that was fun I was the squad leader cuz I'm the most tactical... we went and played dodgeball I love that game... vicious yet fun... like paintball :)... gotta get back into paintball it's a big stress relief to go out and shoot peeps to hell and not go to jail for it.. whoever came up with the idea should not only be rich but get a hug.. wtf... that makes no sense... w/e leave it... anyways... now I'm in here updating and listening to Metallica... gonna do some work on my powerpoint then gonna play some more Xbox... prolly won't play guitars anymore... my head is falling apart... ugh my neck hurts from headbanging... wish I had hair... saw a pic of me with a mustache and long hair.. might go back to that look I think... make myself as unattractive as possible I'm done dating for High School... no need to.. I'll just get hurt or hurt someone else... I take it all too seriously anyways :/ ... sorry to anybody I've ever hurt unknowingly, or knowingly... I never thought I'd see my 18th b-day.. always thought I'd be hit by a car or something.. sounds good to me now... can't be selfish if you didn't do it to yourself... off topic again.... I'm gettin warn out... haven't gotten to sleep before midnight since Friday... haven't gotten to sleep before 2 AM the last 4 nights... 5 outta the 7...
Update on Yesterday
well I decided there hadn't been enough rumors being spread about me.. figured I haven't been giving peeps enough to talk about... stole Lauren's belt, (pink, sparkley, and has little star cut-outs...) wore that a pair of dark jeans, (Buddy Lees I bought with Ash) and the "My Girlfriend's (heart) is Aiken for Clay" shirt with this tight "Grease" style coat with the popped up collar over top of that... well I tucked the shirt in in the front so that you could see the belt.. I got so many funny looks... aahhh should be hearing the rumors soon... fun shit I love High School, people are so shallow.. FTW.. hehe...
Ash Please don't read below this if you even read these, don't wanna break a promise........
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ok that should be enough space... Ash if you're still reading I didn't break a promise you're persistent
God, I miss her... I want her back so bad... ugh I know I'll never get my wish... at least not for a really long time I hope she's happy with him.. and I know she said no more breaks... but I was really hoping that she'd just see that maybe for once she wasn't 100% correct... I know she's a flirt and I knew I wasn't going to change that anytime soon but I had hoped maybe she cared about me enough to not be like that... they were all mad at Steve for what happened between Holly and him.. but I don't think he was that wrong... I'm not saying he was right or smart to punch a wall.. but I feel for him.. it all just hurts... Damn depression sucks... well I'm out DODGEBALL!!!! YEA!!!!
Update on Yesterday
well I decided there hadn't been enough rumors being spread about me.. figured I haven't been giving peeps enough to talk about... stole Lauren's belt, (pink, sparkley, and has little star cut-outs...) wore that a pair of dark jeans, (Buddy Lees I bought with Ash) and the "My Girlfriend's (heart) is Aiken for Clay" shirt with this tight "Grease" style coat with the popped up collar over top of that... well I tucked the shirt in in the front so that you could see the belt.. I got so many funny looks... aahhh should be hearing the rumors soon... fun shit I love High School, people are so shallow.. FTW.. hehe...
Ash Please don't read below this if you even read these, don't wanna break a promise........
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ok that should be enough space... Ash if you're still reading I didn't break a promise you're persistent
God, I miss her... I want her back so bad... ugh I know I'll never get my wish... at least not for a really long time I hope she's happy with him.. and I know she said no more breaks... but I was really hoping that she'd just see that maybe for once she wasn't 100% correct... I know she's a flirt and I knew I wasn't going to change that anytime soon but I had hoped maybe she cared about me enough to not be like that... they were all mad at Steve for what happened between Holly and him.. but I don't think he was that wrong... I'm not saying he was right or smart to punch a wall.. but I feel for him.. it all just hurts... Damn depression sucks... well I'm out DODGEBALL!!!! YEA!!!!