fucking parents
why do parents always say that everything is 'for your own good'. it is not. telling me i can't hang out with jessica is not for my own good. actually it will most likely provoke me into acting out, and NOONE likes it when i act out. i suppose its probably because when i do act out, i go off. i break things. i kick and scream and throw tantrums even the most angry three yearold couldnt match. but thats besides the point. whats really pissing me off is the fact that they are blaming jessica for soemthing she didnt do, and no one will listen to me when i bring this up. HELLO.. we're barely getting paid to sell fucking pictures, i sure as hell wasnt getting paid to babysit, and niether was jessica, so whatever that little girl did was not my fault, AT ALL. so why am i not allowed to talk to jessica? im not being told. of course my dad, who made this decision, left home as soon as i got back. he let mom tell me the news. thats fucking bullshit. if he has something to tell me, he needs to tell me himself instead of making my mother, who he knows that i dont get along with, tell me. i hate it when people lie to me. i do find out damnit. god fucking damnit i just wanna leave. i know i cant. sarah told me i could come and stay with her, but of course im not trusted enough for that. if im really not being punished, and im being lvoed, then shouldnt i be trusted enough to go spend the night with my best friend, seeing as i didnt do shit? i dunno.