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I wanna close all the doors that lead to everywhere. I need to be alone. I need to trace these pictures with my fingertips. I want to feel that way again. How do I describe it? Hurt, used, worthless, confused, totally and completely alone. I was always one for being screwed up. And now..I'm not. I have people who care about me. And you know what I want more than anything? I want body shots, and keg stands. I want drunken kisses that mean nothing. I want to be fucked up. I miss messing up my life. But we all have cravings. But that doesnt mean we can have it. I let that all go and as much as it hurts I have to leave it in the past.