i'm going crazy
this day sucked. it was so freakin fucked up. i dont even kno where to start.
ok first mat is in the hospital. i feel like shit, cuz i basically broke it off w/him the nite before. and now he's in the hospital. i'm going to see him tomorrow. i'm feel like a bitch. if he's not ok, i swear. i mean i cried wen i found out anyway. jeez, i'm not gonna think bout it.
then, i find out these two girls had run away, and i was kinda close with one of them. i just wanted to be there wen they found them, cuz i'm sure everyone was all bitchy, and i wanna run away sometimes, i just wanted to befriend them wen everyone else prolly wasnt. they found the one i was close with. whew. i'm praying they find the other girl soon.
everyone knows about friday. i have no regrets. although he seems to have some. i just want him to love me, and sometimes i think he doesnt even care. although he said no matter wat happens he wants to be friends. at least that made me smile. i wish things would just work out.
i'm going to get my ass kicked. i loved you all if i get shot.
OK some stupid mother fuckers stole a necklace i had bought for my mom out of my locker. i'm so pissed, it was a cross (i think) in memory of my little sister who died, and some FAGGOT MOTHERFUCKERS stole it. my mom paid $40 for it. i hate corydon people. i am gonna find it and yell at the stupid bitch who took it.
i just wanted to sit on the floor at school and cry today. i swear i prolly wouldnt have stopped if i did. i've been holding strong, although i did break down and do some stupid shit cuz i was pissed. w/e.i cant take back anything, so i just gotta deal with all this.
<3 sarah caroline <3