Hate YOU!!!
I can't believe how upset i was last night..... i just can't belive how rude, selfish, i really don't know what others words to describe how hurtful he was to me. I HATE HIM SO MUCH... even thou i was trying to give him another chance from my childhood, when he wacked us and spoke to us like we were "NOTHING". I was sitting down talking to mum about stuff thats going on, and of course my dad had to listen in. I must of said something about "i hate feeling like this all the time, and i try so hard to fix it"... this weren't his exact words but he said "if you actually did something for once in your life, and not just stuff around all the time, you wouldn't be this f**ked up, pathetic, and then our family wouldn't be talking about how stupid our family is."
He said more, i know it doesn't sound that bad... but it was the way he said it to me, and the look he gave me.
I actually packed my bags and was ready to leave, but then i thought to myself, do i want to destroy what i've kinda done alright in my life... so i just stayed in my room, wrote poems, cryed.. cryed some more and more, and listen to music.
I just wish my dad knew how much he hurt me... but i don't think he cares......
He said more, i know it doesn't sound that bad... but it was the way he said it to me, and the look he gave me.
I actually packed my bags and was ready to leave, but then i thought to myself, do i want to destroy what i've kinda done alright in my life... so i just stayed in my room, wrote poems, cryed.. cryed some more and more, and listen to music.
I just wish my dad knew how much he hurt me... but i don't think he cares......