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You know what, I just realized that I take too much advantage of what I have. It`s beginning to catch up with me.. I`m also letting too many people take advantage of me and the way I view things. So here`s a list of what I`m going to do.
1. Everyone knows how much I love Paul, but I do realize that he doesn`t feel the same way I do, and if he does he doesn`t show it. So I`m going to lose all contact with him, forget his number & never hit him up on yahoo. The only way I`ll talk to him is if he calls me or hits me up. Otherwise, I`m not gonna even bother. It`s not worth my time anymore, I`m too young to be dealing with this bullshit, me crying over him, and sitting around wondering if he`s gonna call me or not .
2. I`m not gonna come online that much anymore. Everyone`s gotta admit that the "net" is getting kinda old. So therefore I`ve decided this, I`ll update once a week in my LJ. During the week I`ll only be on the computer for up to 6 hours, which isn`t a lot compared to how much time I spend on here now. Then on the weekends, maybe I`ll come on like 3 hours a day. Then rest of the time, I`m gonna try workin' on my relationship with my family, cause heaven knows I need to.
3. We have like what, maybe 2 months left of school. So these last 2 months, I`m gonna work my ass off so that I`ll be to say that I atleast tried to pass. I honestly know, that I don`t need to be in the same grade again.
4. I know that I`m over weight, that kinda gives me low self esteem. So I`m gonna work out more, and try to lose atleast 3o pounds before summer, if not more. I`m so tired of people in my family talking shit, you would think they would learn to accept me for who i am. But that obviously have not.. so just to get rid of the bitching & whining I`m gonna do this.
5. Now this is the part where it involves LJ. I`m going to be making a cut, and the people that I`m going to cut are going to be the people that have been extremely rude to me in the past couple weeks, and I feel that I dont to talk to anymore. If you`re one to get cut, please don`t come to my LJ and harrass me. I`m not doing this to try & make you feel bad, nor am I doing it because I don`t like you. I`m just at the point in my life where I know that I need to grow up, so that is what I`m going to be doing.