Funny how we create our own sufferings...
Yesterday it occured to me that I still have this lj; which is really funny. So today I read all my early entries and I was laughing my ass off about how funny and annoying I used to sound. Well here is an update on my life:
1. June- moved out of my apartment where my leech of an ex is living with scum from the street and his very sweet, way to smart to be living there brother. I left behind the abuse, the depression, the jealousy, the neglect and the mistrust.
a. moved to Kansas City, MO to live with my aunts and their families; opened my blinded eyes to finally get over my ex and good ridence to him.
2. July- Focused on healing myself and rediscovering my confidence and the "pure" Raquel that never met or laid eyes on my ex. Reconnecting my spiritual life with God.
3. August- got a job at a Massage Envy clinic and to anyone who hasn't had one...professionally...GET ONE! They are amazing! I also meet this killer nice guy ;-)
Overall my life is on the fast track to greatness :-) I intend to enroll into acc spring semester and study for my degree in Kinesiology; like I wanted to do before I got myself into the poisonous sticky web of the ex. But everything has healed; i've forgiven myself for wasting my time and life on that pathetic excuse of a man and I'm on to bigger and better things. And in all honesty, i'm tired of playing games and I just want my career and to settle down with the man God intended for me to be with; that one man who will love me endlessly, and only me and I only him. And being the oldest cousin and caring for all my younger cousins (ages 9-7months and 1 on the way) has made my maternal clock start ticking more so than ever before. You should see my baby cousin! He's so cute with his chunky cheeks, little chin, and big brown eyes! He's so cute! I was so proud of myself at church on sunday because I actulley rocked him to sleep! And he's the most stubborn baby boy cuz all he wants his to fall asleep while breastfeeding but my aunt wasn't going to do that in church so he was passed to me and I just worked my hidden magical maternal powers and he fell asleep; it was so cute. ANYWAYS...I'm rambling about babies....hope everyone is doing well!