it's much eaier not to know things sometimes, and to have french fries with your mom be enough...
this post is dedicated to that special part of my heart left in the burgh...
whenever i find myself feeling this way, i always read a book. it's an amazing concept, to just escape reality and transform yourself into a world that has been made for you by someone else. for some reason, i always end up reading "the perks of being a wallflower" if you haven't read this book yet, i think you should. it will definately make you think differently about your high school years, but it will also make you think differently about yourself. it's weird though, most people after they read a book taht really means something to them it "changes their life" and their "perspective on things" and of course i say this, but then i'll just go back to the way i am. i'm affraid of change. i'm affraid of a lot of things, and change is one of them. then again i am probably one of the most unorganized people you know, but there is always a system to my madness. i love reading this book, because first off i know it is based in pittsburgh. even though it doesn't tell you exactly where the person is from, i know it has to be pittsburgh. but anyway i always feel so different after everytime i read it. i must have read it about 3 or 4 times this past year, but i always seem to learn something new every time. i spent about 3 hours tonight reading it. i never realized just how peaceful it is to read on my front porch on a rainy night. all night actually, ever since i left the coffee shop i have felt so peacefull, for the first time in a long time, i can breath without gasping for air. after i left the coffee shop i went driving around. i managed to figure out how to burn my "the burgh" mix on my itunes onto a cd. and it was amazing. i drove without a cause and felt free. i listened to the songs we listened to this past year, and just felt so happy, because even though things at home are horrible when it comes to friends, i know that my true friends, no family are waiting for me in pittsburgh. as i blared defying gravity and screamed it at the top of my longs i rolled the windows down and just let the wind blow me away with the song. and then i started to cry. but for once it wasn't a sad cry, it was just a cry, because i felt infinite. who i am in pittsburgh and who i am at home are two completely different people. and for once tonight, i was myself. i didn't care, i didn't worry...i just exhisted...
<3 K
p.s. tracy and kyle- i need your addresses...i have something to give you that i think you will enjoy...I love you two very much and i miss you so much, but we shall be reunited soon
whenever i find myself feeling this way, i always read a book. it's an amazing concept, to just escape reality and transform yourself into a world that has been made for you by someone else. for some reason, i always end up reading "the perks of being a wallflower" if you haven't read this book yet, i think you should. it will definately make you think differently about your high school years, but it will also make you think differently about yourself. it's weird though, most people after they read a book taht really means something to them it "changes their life" and their "perspective on things" and of course i say this, but then i'll just go back to the way i am. i'm affraid of change. i'm affraid of a lot of things, and change is one of them. then again i am probably one of the most unorganized people you know, but there is always a system to my madness. i love reading this book, because first off i know it is based in pittsburgh. even though it doesn't tell you exactly where the person is from, i know it has to be pittsburgh. but anyway i always feel so different after everytime i read it. i must have read it about 3 or 4 times this past year, but i always seem to learn something new every time. i spent about 3 hours tonight reading it. i never realized just how peaceful it is to read on my front porch on a rainy night. all night actually, ever since i left the coffee shop i have felt so peacefull, for the first time in a long time, i can breath without gasping for air. after i left the coffee shop i went driving around. i managed to figure out how to burn my "the burgh" mix on my itunes onto a cd. and it was amazing. i drove without a cause and felt free. i listened to the songs we listened to this past year, and just felt so happy, because even though things at home are horrible when it comes to friends, i know that my true friends, no family are waiting for me in pittsburgh. as i blared defying gravity and screamed it at the top of my longs i rolled the windows down and just let the wind blow me away with the song. and then i started to cry. but for once it wasn't a sad cry, it was just a cry, because i felt infinite. who i am in pittsburgh and who i am at home are two completely different people. and for once tonight, i was myself. i didn't care, i didn't worry...i just exhisted...
<3 K
p.s. tracy and kyle- i need your addresses...i have something to give you that i think you will enjoy...I love you two very much and i miss you so much, but we shall be reunited soon