"Of late my greatest talent has become either alienation or indifference..."
I wrote a poem last september about this exact feeling. It seems my fears run seasons like I'm allergic to the month or the environment to which it brings me. I'm behind in work, I stopped going to one of my classes. I haven't lost a goddamn pound. I'm not really in a bad mood so much as a complete absence of a mood. I'm running half a tank but my dashboard screams Empty. I therefore don't bother driving.
You'd think the tragedies that are happening by the hour down by the Gulf would make me not be so concerned with the shit I complain about. I hate people that remind me of things I hate about myself. I sometimes feel that half my floor might be judging me every time I talk to them (Read: Me, Atheist, Them, Not) just because of something that should be personal thing. I'm not bitter enough to say "fuck it" but also not secure enough that some of them actually like me to think they aren't judging me. With some of them it's obvious that they don't care either way. In an hour or two I'll chalk this up to paranoia and move on. But I guess that's what LJ is for.
On the bright side, I'm reviewing the new Coheed & Cambria CD this week, along with the debut Nightmare of You and the new From Autumn To Ashes all three of which are currently on a loop because I love all three of them. NoY sounds similar to Ted Leo, which is always a plus.
I learned to scream. Ask the people on my floor ((Hell Yeah From First To Last!!))
Fall Out Boy, Motion City Soundtrack, Panic! At the Disco, The Starting Line, and Boys Night Out show is in 9 Days! I really hope to have some merch money for the show, from what I've heard Panic! is an incredible band and I'd like to get a CD, plus I kind of want a new band shirt, probably MCS or FOB, but who knows. Hope nobody steals my shirt like the last FOB show I was at :(
I'm going to try to update this more often. TRY
You'd think the tragedies that are happening by the hour down by the Gulf would make me not be so concerned with the shit I complain about. I hate people that remind me of things I hate about myself. I sometimes feel that half my floor might be judging me every time I talk to them (Read: Me, Atheist, Them, Not) just because of something that should be personal thing. I'm not bitter enough to say "fuck it" but also not secure enough that some of them actually like me to think they aren't judging me. With some of them it's obvious that they don't care either way. In an hour or two I'll chalk this up to paranoia and move on. But I guess that's what LJ is for.
On the bright side, I'm reviewing the new Coheed & Cambria CD this week, along with the debut Nightmare of You and the new From Autumn To Ashes all three of which are currently on a loop because I love all three of them. NoY sounds similar to Ted Leo, which is always a plus.
I learned to scream. Ask the people on my floor ((Hell Yeah From First To Last!!))
Fall Out Boy, Motion City Soundtrack, Panic! At the Disco, The Starting Line, and Boys Night Out show is in 9 Days! I really hope to have some merch money for the show, from what I've heard Panic! is an incredible band and I'd like to get a CD, plus I kind of want a new band shirt, probably MCS or FOB, but who knows. Hope nobody steals my shirt like the last FOB show I was at :(
I'm going to try to update this more often. TRY