what do i do when i'm black and i'm blue?
thank god i'm transferring...
what a BAD weekend...
well, not bad...just STUPID
why am i sooo needy? why do i compromise myself? am i sooo desperate that i'll hook up with guys i don't even like? it's sooo pathetic. he's not even cute, but i've lead him to believe i liked him because i think i wanted attention and i can be all flirty on the phone or online cause i don't have to see him....but then when we're together i HAVE to do things with him... thank god i'll be leaving....
i wish i could say something now, but his roommate has a car and i've been able to make him drive me to work which is soooo much nicer than having to ride my bike....and i still have three weeks left of work...
i don't know what to do...
i feel sooooo fucking stupid for last night....
i should never be left alone on ambien
FUCK
and i still have to find a way to tell work that i'm leaving and that Dec. 10th will be my last day....i feel truely awful
i remember how much i hated when staff left at grove
but i gotta tell them soon cause i really really really don't want to work on my last weekend here (especially since i'll have to pack and study my ass off for finals)....
i have too much shit to do this week before wednesday......and over t-day break, and i've fucking said i'd work Friday....why the fuck do i do this???? i want the weekend off! oh well....i think we're driving up to Fargo, North Dakota...that should take up like 2 hrs i think to get there...so 4 hours of the 6 will be spent driving, which should make it seem faster....but the lady that works that day is kinda boring...Plus, that day i HAVE to tell her i'm leaving....but i have a story....
My dad is getting married so I arranged to take my finals one week earlier and i'll be leaving Dec. 14th and i got offered a scholarship to a school back east in NY and i can't afford to turn it down, so i'll be moving back to New York....
is that believable? now i just have to remember dec. 14th.....lets see, the wedding will be on dec. 21st.....it's really jan. 6th....
i'm in such a bad mood and i just want to sleep....
i'm not going to any classes today
but i have to study for a test tomorrow....
alright, i gotta go to the library to work on a group project at 2, instead of class....
i hate myself so fucking much right now....
i hate that i have 3 weeks until therapy again...why does everything happen right AFTER i have therapy....
maybe i should just call...i just had it thursday night, this is rediculous...
fuck
what a BAD weekend...
well, not bad...just STUPID
why am i sooo needy? why do i compromise myself? am i sooo desperate that i'll hook up with guys i don't even like? it's sooo pathetic. he's not even cute, but i've lead him to believe i liked him because i think i wanted attention and i can be all flirty on the phone or online cause i don't have to see him....but then when we're together i HAVE to do things with him... thank god i'll be leaving....
i wish i could say something now, but his roommate has a car and i've been able to make him drive me to work which is soooo much nicer than having to ride my bike....and i still have three weeks left of work...
i don't know what to do...
i feel sooooo fucking stupid for last night....
i should never be left alone on ambien
FUCK
and i still have to find a way to tell work that i'm leaving and that Dec. 10th will be my last day....i feel truely awful
i remember how much i hated when staff left at grove
but i gotta tell them soon cause i really really really don't want to work on my last weekend here (especially since i'll have to pack and study my ass off for finals)....
i have too much shit to do this week before wednesday......and over t-day break, and i've fucking said i'd work Friday....why the fuck do i do this???? i want the weekend off! oh well....i think we're driving up to Fargo, North Dakota...that should take up like 2 hrs i think to get there...so 4 hours of the 6 will be spent driving, which should make it seem faster....but the lady that works that day is kinda boring...Plus, that day i HAVE to tell her i'm leaving....but i have a story....
My dad is getting married so I arranged to take my finals one week earlier and i'll be leaving Dec. 14th and i got offered a scholarship to a school back east in NY and i can't afford to turn it down, so i'll be moving back to New York....
is that believable? now i just have to remember dec. 14th.....lets see, the wedding will be on dec. 21st.....it's really jan. 6th....
i'm in such a bad mood and i just want to sleep....
i'm not going to any classes today
but i have to study for a test tomorrow....
alright, i gotta go to the library to work on a group project at 2, instead of class....
i hate myself so fucking much right now....
i hate that i have 3 weeks until therapy again...why does everything happen right AFTER i have therapy....
maybe i should just call...i just had it thursday night, this is rediculous...
fuck