that's where the colors don't go...
i think i have problems....i know no one reads these anymore but i think it's kind of like a catharsis to rant here...sort off...
i get to have therapy tomorrow morning though...totally excited for that haha... (should i be this excited about therapy? is that normal? i love therapy...)
anyway...
i skipped spanish today....it was kind of a mix of depression, tiredness and general anxiety
(there's a really cute guy two tables ahead of me in the computer lab....)
sometimes when i'm depressed i like to buy things...like clothes... i have a "wish list" at forever21.com that i keep adding to... i'd like to purchase the dresses but i know i'll feel totally guilty about it later....
i should really be doing homework instead of looking at clothes online...fuck....
i have another complaint about myself...
ok, this is going to make me sound ubber spoiled... see, my car is a piece of shit and falling apart constantly...so my dad offered to give me his 2001 toyota camry if his company gives him a company car (which he should know by the end of the week). i'm happy about it, don't get me wrong...but then he said that if they don't give him a company car he'll help me lease a car (in which case it might be the 2007 toyota yaris....but i don't know for sure cause i know those are in "high demand" so maybe a corolla)... so now i really want the yaris cause it's more my style than a camry and it gets better gas mileage. see, i feel guilty driving ANYWHERE because it uses gas and i can barely afford it.... the camry gets about 24mpg on the highway...the yaris gets about 40mpg... i really want the yaris so i can drive farther on one tank of gas....
but either way i win right? either the camry or another car will be mine in december or january....so shouldn't i be happy?
i'm also "stressed/anxious" about this whole transferring thing....just cause i wanna know NOW if i got in....but it's gonna probably be like another month before i know....and it's a 60% acceptance rate...my roommate is transferring to (i think cause i am...) in the spring, but her school is 90% acceptance....so she'll get in....
i really should be doing homework....lab reports are the devil....i fucking hate them...
leah made me jealous...she gets high/drunk all the time....
i wanna get high/drunk every night...
why does this town suck? cause it's minnesota, that's why....
michelle, we're going out to get drunk the FIRST weekend i'm at albany ok? no arguments hehe....
plus, i'll come to you and your "gilmore girls posse" (hehe) and we'll eat and watch gilmore girls....
and once a week we'll have a homecooked meal together either at albany or union....chicken...fried rice....chicken pot pie (which i'm gonna attempt this week)... potatoes....steak!...pasta....pancakes....eggs....whatever you want!!
geez.....i gotta be productive now....(and pee!!!)