Hold Your Breath...

[losingrayelle]

I need to find a school I want to go to soon. I need to apply for the winter/spring semester... I'm going to dye if I have to be here longer than January. OMG, I can't fucking stand it. No one gets that though. It's just not a healthy thing for me to live with my mother. And the school is filled with a bunch of morons who don't see that. Why? Because my mother is a fucking fake in family meetings. And when I try and say how I feel I get, "Oh, so it's all your mother's fault." Jesus fucking christ...is that what I said?
There is no way I can stay here.
She fucking walks into my room all the time and always wants to do things. Leave me the fuck alone. Can't you see I don't want to be with you? I need to get out of this apartment. But no, she has it all set up so I have like an appointment every other day, therefor I can't go over to anyones house... How convenient of her...
FUCK!
I don't know how it's going to work in September...
I have to leave soon...
No one cares though...
They've put up with me for two years...after August they couldn't care less what happens to me, that's my theory on why they won't let me go away to school. God forbid I take out a loan...It's what EVERYONE has to do for school, don't they fucking see that?
I can't believe it hasn't even been a week...
And I only have six weeks left of a life away from my fucking psycho bitch of a mother...who thinks she's so perfect...
Oh how clouded her judgement of herself is...
She has so many opinions of everyone else and their behavior, but god forbid someone should mention that they feel less-than-perfect about her...
FUCK YOU!