So random
SO i was doing a survey thingy in my live journal and one of the questions asked do you miss somebody. And everytime i see that question i can't help but think about my grandpop. Maybe that's because my other grandfather died when my dad was only 13 and he was the only one i ever had. And now that some of my younger cousins are getting a bit earlier and i can talk to them about things now. I've realized they don't remember him and i just think omg they will never get to know how great he was. They'll never get to learn the little things he taught me like cool tricks with a hoola hoop. They won't ever have him tease me or play all other sorts of games. Even my little sister who isn't that much younger then me can't remember him.
It just hurts to know that he couldn't be there when i graduated and he won't be there when i got to my gmoms next week to say goodbye to her. He would have been so proud of me because i am the first of the grandchildren to go away to college. I'm gonna be like the first one in my immediate family to hopefully graduate from college and i wanted him to be there that day i do. He just didn't live long enough and he didn't see enough. He missed about 5 of his grandchildren being born and didn't see any of them make it to high school. I just wish he was still here. It sounds so selfish but i was so close with him in my first 10 years of life. It doesn't seem like a lot but it meant so much to me. I guess I'm just getting emotional because i'm leaving so soon and when you enter college you just start to look back at everything.
I need to like just take a day or two to just relax and refelct. Who else is with me on that.
It just hurts to know that he couldn't be there when i graduated and he won't be there when i got to my gmoms next week to say goodbye to her. He would have been so proud of me because i am the first of the grandchildren to go away to college. I'm gonna be like the first one in my immediate family to hopefully graduate from college and i wanted him to be there that day i do. He just didn't live long enough and he didn't see enough. He missed about 5 of his grandchildren being born and didn't see any of them make it to high school. I just wish he was still here. It sounds so selfish but i was so close with him in my first 10 years of life. It doesn't seem like a lot but it meant so much to me. I guess I'm just getting emotional because i'm leaving so soon and when you enter college you just start to look back at everything.
I need to like just take a day or two to just relax and refelct. Who else is with me on that.