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People are confusing. I have seen so many weird things occur in teh past 5 days that it is hard ot explain. Some People hate me and the some people like me alot. People jsut confuse the shit out of me. I mean there are friends out there who jsut have developed into accquaintances, and i know it is my fault that this has happened. Fuck it. I have five or six really good friends, who mean so much to me. I guess what i am trying to say is that if you were once kinda a friend of mine or atleast a nice companion. I apologize for not pursuing our friendship further. CAll me. Seriously jsut like up and call me. This entry makes no sense. I am jsut really really confused. I dont know why with the exception of one or two truly wonderful things, such as my girl friend my life is headed on this downward spiral. My head hurts. I am so sick of smiling when i dont really feel emotion about a situation. My heart is heavy. I miss having a family. I want them back, but i cant have them back. I am jsut sick of this empty house. I am sick of these empty walls and most of all i am sick of myself. Pathetic? dont know. dont really care all to much. I need that adrenaline shot from pulp fiction.I apologize to everyone who read thsi entire thing a nd feeels liek less of a person for wasting thier time.
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