on the heels of.....
Abi called this morning. She asked me about Athena, nothing specific, just wanted me to talk about her. I rambled on with examples of her behavior, little tidbits of her personality and Abi listened without comment. I wanted to know how she was doing but she told me she wanted to know anything about Athena so that she could learn how to be a good girlfriend. She believes that the current unhappy relationship that she is in is a direct karmic consequence of how she treated me and she bears it because she believes it will make her a better person.
Part of me is glad to know that she realized how she treated me, knowing that she lost something good. More of me is sad that she is punishing herself for it, as it brings me no joy to know of her pain. I have nothing to hold against her.
She ended the call by telling me not to be bummed out, she has known me long enough to be familiar with my empathetic response, instead telling me to think about all the wonderful things I had told her about Athena. I smiled, simultaneously feeling joy and sadness, knowing that I rubbed off on her but knowing that she longs for a train that departed long ago.
Part of me is glad to know that she realized how she treated me, knowing that she lost something good. More of me is sad that she is punishing herself for it, as it brings me no joy to know of her pain. I have nothing to hold against her.
She ended the call by telling me not to be bummed out, she has known me long enough to be familiar with my empathetic response, instead telling me to think about all the wonderful things I had told her about Athena. I smiled, simultaneously feeling joy and sadness, knowing that I rubbed off on her but knowing that she longs for a train that departed long ago.